An Addicts Confession

This is written from the perspective of an addict who knows there is freedom in Jesus but has yet to experience for herself. Freedom in Jesus sounds so wonderful and simple, yet people that have tried to help her fail to realize something … she is an addict and an addict falls hard to the thing she is addicted to.
An addict is a tortured soul who knows the truth but feeds off lies (eventually confusing them for truth). If an addict stays too long here, they become unrecognizable. You see, addiction isn’t just to drugs, alcohol, and sex. Addiction is the very thing the enemy uses to torture your soul, question God’s goodness, and ultimately destroy you (your testimony, heart, all the good work God has done in you).
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy.” John 10:10

 

My body is driven by you.

My mind is consumed by you.

My life is encompassed by you.

My soul is tortured by you.

Yet,

You are not my King.

You are not who I committed to serve.

You are not sovereign.

Yet,

You are who feeds me (day in, day out).

You are who I get drunk on.

You are my addiction.

Fear.

Shame.

 

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Written By: Maria Bowersock

6 comments / Add your comment below

  1. This is a very scary situation. Thank God for the power and the grace of our Lord Jesus. I pray that they reach people in this situation and grant them freedom.

  2. This is a beautiful, honest post Maria. Addiction is such a sad disease to live with. Rather you are the addict, or the wife, daughter, sister, or friend of an addict. Drawing closer to Jesus through the struggle is definitely the most important thing!

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